1 by 1.. Day by Day..

Lets see.. Joe came back on the 25th (Sunday).. i was in St James.. accompany him and Philips for window shopping on the 27th (Tuesday).. didn't know what to do after window shopping.. we at vivo.. then i called and no one is in town.. jam.. called up a few people.. in the end.. asked YJ to join us for mahjong at Joe's house.. play 1 round oni.. but quite long.. end up.. i break even.. if remember correctly.. Phil and YJ each loss $5.. base $20 worx.. after mahjong.. all went home.. i went to Darren's house.. accompany him a while.. sianx lorx.. he fell asleep.. i left his house myself and went home.. was thinking things when walking along the road.. woke up and went for interview yesterday (Wednesday).. met up with Roy, Kenneth and Andy at lan shop.. played 1 round then Roy and Kenneth went off.. Roy need to fit clothes.. Sadness and Ah Pui came.. play DotA.. then Calli and Derrick came.. DotA again.. Roy, Kenneth And Monster came.. DotA all the way.. lolx.. a bit sianx.. but how..? anyway.. after the lan.. all left.. i went to meet Andrew cux he come Singapore for business.. met up with him.. chit chat.. today wake up early.. surprisingly.. later got driving lesson at 11.30am.. then most prob meeting Roy and co. before he goes to work.. but i confirm got meet Layss and maybe Joe and Yujian after Layss finish work at Raffles City.. yeah.. lolx..

Life Sucks..

I have decided not to wrk in GV liaox.. cux the wrking conditions are not acceptable at all.. 1st - low pay.. 2nd - cannot choose shift.. 3rd - cannot choose off day.. how like that.. haix.. anyway.. yeah.. jobless again.. am searching.. nth much to update liaox lehx.. hmmm let's see.. yesterday went to meet Roy, Monster and Layss for early dinner.. went to Waraku for Jap food.. surprisingly.. no ppl at that time.. ordered quite a few items.. the food very nice worx.. eat till very full.. *thanks Roy* eat finish le sent Roy off to wrk 1st cux he need reach early.. we all went Speedy to find the others.. quite a lot.. got Kenneth, Andy.Y, Max, Kelvin, Lionel, Calli, Derek, Ben Chor.. after lan.. all went Maxwell.. eat eat and slack slack.. PLAY was boring lorx.. except some nice songs now and then.. Glarie Kor got go also.. he reach 1+ but both our hp got prob.. he sms he and call me also cannot.. 2+ then finally can contact each other and met inside the club.. but also funny lahx.. PLAY not that big.. cannot contact me.. also nv come and find me de.. dots.. then end up.. kor drank too much.. cannot drive me home.. but horx.. see him and his friend get on his car lehx.. then he say he going drive around 2 wait for roadblock to clear then send his fren home whom stays near him.. yeah.. and cannot send back ur di.. yeah.. so after eating at Maxwell.. Layss, Monster and Roy left earlier.. i shared cab with Kenneth, Ben Chor and Gary.L.. Terry and Calli they all sit DeLong's car.. yeah lorx.. then now.. got woken up by my mother.. dunno why so early.. yawnx.. still sleepy.. but she dun wanna let me slp le.. sobbiex.. haix.. gonna go play mahjong with computer.. ciaox..!

Birthdays Everyday..

Omg.. got a lot of birthday parties to attend lorx.. my poor wallet.. the hole is burning larger and larger.. sobx.. anyway.. went to Alex de bday party at Safra Town Club at lvl 2 on the 17th Nov.. The Ark Cafe.. he book the place and got buffet.. still can sing song also.. went with Monster, Layss, Zombie, Kenneth and Kelvin.. then on the 20th nov.. went to 'Xiao' Ah Zai's bday.. also at Safra Town Club.. but his is the lvl 6 de KTV pub.. went there with Sadness, Monster, Harper, Xiao Ray and Xiao Ray's Bf.. hmmm.. went there sing songs and drink lorx.. ordered finger food when hungry.. the fried chicken wings very nice worx.. cold surroundings.. then eat the hot hot chicken wings.. woot.. shiok.. lolx.. hmmm.. as for my job hunt.. ok lahx.. i settle for GV lorx.. pay not that fantastic.. working hours also not that nice also.. but well.. it's a job after all.. yeah.. i know my blog very dead.. but really nth happening happen lehx.. haix.. will try k..? ciaox..

Terry's 18th Birthday Bash..

Went to Terry's house today for bbq birthday celebration.. shared with some others and bought him back the LV coin pouch which he lost.. *dun make lost again arhx* when i arrive.. expected a lot of people.. surprisingly.. not much lehx.. anyway.. i tried helping out a bit.. then started eating etc.. was very tired after some time.. went and rest at the pool side beach chair.. hmm.. then cut cake.. Terry got 2 bithday cake worx.. 1 from AlvinKino.. 1 from De Long.. at that time got 28 people liaox.. cut cut eat eat.. security guard came and told us to start packing liaox.. cux late le.. then clean up lorx.. i wash the floor like mad lorx.. i'm such a maid.. haix.. then rest and chit chat.. now at home typing this entry.. hmm.. gave quite a few presents today.. passed Harper his bday present.. passed Calli and Andrea their Christmas present.. i know very early give liaox.. but i scared when Christmas time.. i forget.. so now give lorx.. the also gave Alex his early bday present.. apologies to Yun Yun.. i know late liaox.. >.< *sorry* yeah.. anyway.. Terry arhx.. 18 le worx.. must more mature le k..? also must more guai arhx.. *huggles to all my frens* nitex

Endless Time.. Very Limited Cash..

Haix.. till now haven't found a job.. 1st.. no company call me for interview even after i sent my resume.. 2nd.. those go interview de say will call me.. also nv.. how like that.. haix.. sianx lorx.. anyway.. spent most of my time with Roy & Co. nowadays.. jus dota.. window shopping.. makan.. sometimes bowling or movies lorx.. hmmm.. oh yeah.. i wanna thank Eugene for buying the wind-proof lighter for me.. and thank Roy for the Mont Blanc card holder.. woots.. both items from my 'wants' list de worx.. *happy* wish i could find a job soon.. it's nice to hang out with frens.. but would also like to get some work experience before going to NS.. most importantly.. the money i'll get from the job.. lolx.. kkx.. i gtg liaox.. going to buy newspaper see got any jobs to go interview or not.. ciaox..

Feeling..

Cute.. boyish is the attraction.. mature is handsome and smart.. who cares about the stats.. not while looking at the face.. face to face just softens the shield.. the shield protecting the supposedly frozen heart..

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suspicions are sure to be there.. but there seems no confrontation.. not brave enough to proceed further.. stuck somewhere.. terrified of rejection.. also unsure if the past is gone.. however one thing is for certain.. it has been so long.. since the whynot days.. so it is certainly true..

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He Who Threw Me Into The River Of Despair..

I am pretty sure i haven gotten over him.. have i..? if so.. then why does my heart aches as though someone is piercing a nail through it whenever i think of him.. look at his pictures.. hear his voice.. speak to him.. it brings back the times we were together.. ur smile.. ur silliness.. ur kiss.. ur hug.. sometimes.. when i got nothing to do.. and the place i'm at is where we went b4.. i remember.. why are you always on my mind..? i hate myself.. i hate myself for being unable to totally forget you.. why should i be trap within the rapids in the river of despair while u live ur life as per normal.. as though i haven't existed in urs at all.. why should i be crying myself to sleep whenever i think of you in the middle of the night..? it is so unfair.. i know life is unfair.. but why.. to me.. i hate myself.. *crying - thinking of him*

Can You Fill In This Application Form..?

Hmm.. have been sending in resumes to serveral companies.. but till now.. only have 3 company asking me to go for interview.. sent the resumes on Saturday.. got a reply.. Monday got interview by BGC Group.. the other 2 called me.. Tuesday got interview with LV.. then Wednesday (today) got interview with Club21.. then everytime i step into the office and say i'm here for the interview.. the 1st thing the front desk lady would say.. can you fill in this application form..? lolx.. happened twice in a row.. not surprising if Club21 does the same thing.. hmm.. anyway.. that's all about my job thingy de bahx.. wish me luck in landing on a good job.. *smiles*

Blur blur.. Confused..

As i am typing this entry.. i am feeling ultra confused and irritated.. in my mind.. there's something bothering me.. but the problem is.. i dunno what it is.. haix.. irritating lehx.. so.. i've decided.. i'll start listing the things which i think might be bothering me.. let's start with my family.. family is great lehx.. very helpful towards me.. somemore is my big sis de bday.. 31st Oct.. *Happy Birthday Da Jie* so family is ok-ok lahx.. then is friends.. my social life.. ok arhx.. i know now got a bit of a problem between some people.. hope i dun need to get down of the mountain.. troublesome.. anyway.. i think the problem is ok-ok lahx.. not so big.. furthermore not involving me.. can itchy itchy and interrupt lahx.. but i'll try not to.. lolx.. let's proceed on to the next thing.. love life.. practically dead.. except for an occasional infatuation here and there.. well.. there is this particular person whom i saw a few times le.. a stranger.. saw 3 times le bahx.. very cute.. so my type.. but everytime i see the person.. haix.. no courage.. now.. i decided le.. if i see the person the 4th time.. i'm so gonna pluck my courage and speak to the person.. yeah.. last factor.. me as a person.. i know my living habit sucks.. shall not elaborate.. but have decided to try and change to a better lifestyle.. starting today..? 1st nov.. i'll try.. hopefully can succeed.. yeah yeah.. that's all lorx.. type all these.. make me feel a bit better.. the unknown problem not so heavy in my mind le.. but i know.. it's still somewhere inside.. better keep myself occupied so it'll not surface.. or is it maybe i've been single too long..? lolx..